The Ever Changing Roles
I had 3 roles after Eric's diagnosis - Girlfriend, Carer and Wife. I changed between 2 of them constantly. When Eric was diagnosed i was a girlfriend. Don't get me wrong, we spent nights planning a wedding, he even told me how he wanted to propose and talked about starting a family - in fact, we were trying when he got diagnosed - but we never got to do things how we planned. The day he got diagnosed, without knowing it, our whole relationship would change. Eric could become rude and like a different person at times - i later found out that this was due to the tumors on his brain. I didn't know it then but our sex like would become non existent - We had a pretty healthy sex life prior to Eric getting ill, but sex was always more important to Eric than me. Don't get me wrong, i loved it, but it wasn't the be all and end all for me. Which is a good thing, as we only had sex 3 times in the 15 months following diagnosis. I missed it, but more than anything i miss
